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2020 Pandemic Journey Day 45

May 5, 2020

Today’s reflection – Dogwood winter in Iowa, it will be chilly all week. Perfect weather for the radish cotyledons pushing up in the garden boxes.  I expect peas to be right behind them.  A Baltimore Oriole flew down and perched on a chair outside my east window, morning sun. I’d been listening to him sing in the canopy all week, so it was great to get a minute to gawk at his orange and black elegance. Last night I glanced out of my kitchen window to see the fox vixen steering her kits down the west ravine. These moments build vital points of context for me, reminders that the world around us keeps doing what it does.  Maybe even with more ease since we have withdrawn.

Lately, some local kids have made night raids on the campus committing small but irksome acts of vandalism. They removed the taped barriers from around the playground equipment, leaving it strewn about, they turned on an outside water tap, and it ran all night. I’m sure there is more evidence of tomfoolery we have yet to discover.  Here is just more normal stuff happening. What a relief!  Understandably, the groundskeepers complain, and that is warranted. But I cannot join in their kvetching chorus because I remember feeling the need for taking chances with such a simple act of delinquency. To be a little naughty. Something about it revived and validated our teenage moxie after the long cooped up winter seasons.

In our campus house, a few of our Asian students, who flex their moxie by going to high school abroad, have learned that their parents think it would be better if they stayed in the states over the summer break. The coronavirus has complicated travel. The girls are keeping their chins up about this turn of events, but I would be so disappointed. They don’t feel sorry for themselves but have a sanguine acceptance for their parent’s decision. I am touched by it. Instead of displaying distress or frustration, they pivoted and appeared to plunk up their sense of adventure and surrender. Flow, no flow. They show me how that looks. I am wondering how far back would I have to step from the scene to give it context that could affirm such a hard decision, even in such anxious times?  Is my expectation of being able to go home at the end of the semester an arrogant act?  An entitled assumption? How many generations did it take to cultivate this attitude?

Taking in what the girls are coming to terms with, reminds me to be grateful for every simple thing that goes well.  Gratitude for reliable transportation on roads that are well maintained and typically safe.  For ample resources to make a thousand-mile trip home. For the free time to visit family and good, good friends.  For ample health and sound mind to navigate the journey.  I am grateful.


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