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Covid19 Journal Entry 7


March 28, 2020

Today’s observation – The morning traffic on 174 West has been thin – mostly 18-wheelers.  I am among the scant population of passenger vehicles.  I see no buses.  The land has been cloaked in ground fog; the sky is overcast. This scenery reminds me of TS Elliot’s poem, The Wasteland.
April is the cruelest month, breeding
Lilacs out of the dead land, mixing
Memory and desire, stirring
Dull roots with spring rain.
 It has been interesting to witness how open businesses implement safeguards again infection for their employees and customers. Stopping for a coffee at the Circle K, the lone employee/cashier greeted me from a side room, only showing her face again at the register when I was ready to check out.  I had grabbed a cup and pressed a few buttons to get my freshly ground brew.  Once at the checkout, I stood behind a taped line on the floor between two safety cones, leaning in to set my cup of Joe on the counter.  The cashier really had no contact with my goods, holding her scanning toward the can of dog food, I’d grabbed too.  The transaction was settled with my plastic bank card and my gratitude for them being open at this crack of dawn hour.  Later, when I topped up my tank at a Love’s station, I went into the store there for another coffee and found that the self-service area were roped off, with a sign announcing that now they offered full service in this area.  Employees stationed there took my drink order and passed it to me over the rope, then returned to sanitizing surfaces.  Once back in my own town, I decided to grab some groceries before returning home to my quarantine. For the most part, all was the same as before except for the check out register procedures.  At the head of the conveyor belt was a sign asking us to wait before I loaded my groceries on it so that the cashier could sanitize between them.  Also, I could no longer use my own bags – all groceries went into one use plastic ones.  At home I employed the methods for bringing groceries into the house that I’d watched on the video which a Michigan physician had shared, wiping each item with a disinfectant wipe before putting it away.  It looked like my place had already been deep cleaned and sanitized, so I was very happy to return to this.  This new regime takes time and attention and we seem to be all in, from my observations.  Once again, America does what's necessary in a crisis, we can be good citizens.  The pathogen appears to be the great uniter.

Today’s idea – I believe we are in a shift brought about by a pandemic that necessitates a united, definitive response. We are not fans of pain, suffering and death.  Well, most of us are not.  Our response has come incrementally and defined.  As we follow mandates from our health avatars, we agree to new expectations of ourselves and each other.  I remember that it takes 66 days to form genuinely new behavior, and think how the longer we maintain our new prophylactic lifestyle of social distancing, super sanitizing and obsessively mindful interactions, the more likely they will become the new normal.  By Mother’s Day the shift will be within us, inherent and complete.  We can call it Evolution.

Today’s image – I imagine this disruption of the many “normal” ways of being – be it economic, governmental or social – as a stress test for our capitalistic, consumer centered society.  We will find what is resilient and what is unworkable or just erodes away.  What serves us and what must be replaced or removed.  The cream rises, the valuable shines among the shards, the light fills the cracks of worry, fear and dysfunction.

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