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Covid19 Journey Day 24


April 14, 2020

Today’s idea – Patience, that’s a tall order for a whole lot of us. We, who have been suckled on rapid gratification - one day free shipping, instant messages, Instant Pot, instant coffee, digital photos, speed dating, love at first sight. Time zips along like quicksilver, and we expect things to happen “now” or, at least, real quick and in a hurry. But with the lockdowns and quarantines, our pace of life has suffered a change.  We are finding, if we are not part of an emergency team, it is pointless to rush about because it only creates empty time beyond the bustle.  We struggle with that too, adverse to the idea of idling (too close to loitering), only cars and dogs do that.  We have a little more time on our hands! Walking around the neighborhood, I see little sign of idle; yards are neat and trim or getting that way fast.  Employment has been translated into lawn work and home projects.  The curbs are stacked with piles of household detritus, yard waste bags, tree limbs, the evidence of a rigorous Spring clean out of garages or extra rooms, maybe a remodel.  The landscape companies are in tall cotton too, there are many new terrace verandas and pergola patios rimmed in rows of fresh bedding plants, gutters being cleaned.  Dogs are getting more exercise than they have in years.  And still there is time for something more if one is averse to idling.  How many days have we been at sea on this voyage of quarantine? How much longer must we float along? Number 45 appears to have never cultivated a toenail of patience in his life, and in his daily briefings he is a ruffled hen.  He thinks the country is falling apart because furloughed workers have too much leisure time. Sending them a relief check will only cultivate laziness.  He reads his tea leaves in the stock market curves.  I don’t feel bad for the man.  There is news of a cherry tree in Japan, more than a thousand years old, that is in full flower of pink and patience.  It knows how to wait out everything: wars, famine, earthquakes, nuclear meltdowns, bad economies, pandemics.  Every blossom whispers - endure.

Today’s image – I like the emotional reciprocity of gifting and being gifted. This week has been a banner one for me, in my mailbox, a festively wrapped box and a postcard with a handwritten note affirming my well ignored attributes by a kind daughter in law.  I love and miss handwritten notes. Not only is letter writing disappearing but fewer students are being taught to write in cursive. It is just not an efficient use of time in the school day, they say.  Keyboard typing has become the standard language dispatch technique outside coding.  And I know, there is something lost when kids can’t read the individualized flow of letters across a page or notecard, and for more reasons than missing out on a grandparent’s well wishes and news.  The pen is mightier than the keyboard.   It sustains that part of the brain that pen to paper can do like nothing else.  Proponents of typing content that keyboarding allows us to communicate faster.  But by writing faster, do we take more time to think? And what is lost in cognitive development when children are deprived of the motor skill experience of learning letters and making a sentence by holding a pen or pencil, chewing on the end lost in thought.  I love this idea by Vivanne Bouysse: “There is an element of dancing when we write, melody in the message which adds emotion to the text.  Afterall that’s why emoticons were invented, to restore a little emotion to text messages.” Okay, I’ve off on a tangent that runs wide of my original image of the beautiful heart of reciprocity. This journal is originally written in a hand that free dances.  The curve of my letters on the page reflects hope that dwells in anticipation of better days ahead and in the happiness I get from calling better days to my front door.

Today’s observation- My Westie and I went for on a walk on the other side of the river. We like to explore Sylvan Park. The park is on a thirty-seven-acre manmade island from a former peninsula jutting out into the Rock River.  There, a steel mill was built in 1894 and it prospered until 1958 when it was abandoned.  The place languished for decades until the 1980’s when neighborhood initiatives got things rolling to clean it up and make it a public recreation area.  The sixty-year-old secondary forest in a damaged natural environment lay fallow as it was reimagined, cleaned up and rebuilt into a treasured city park, now used by walkers, runner, cyclist and paddlers throughout the year.  There is only a trace of trash and vague vestiges of buildings, but the park is teaming with flora that is nonnative and invasive – Asian honeysuckle, Japanese barberry, European privet, Euonymus, Garlic mustard, Winter creeper.  The American origin stories for all of these arise from human immigrants bringing pieces of home with them or sending for seed or shrub to landscape their frontier estates and cottages like the folks back home did.  And like those immigrants, the plants have propagated and spread out in wild abandon.  I make a mental note as I walk to watch for the next clean up campaigns, wondering if efforts to the eradicate these plant exotics will be as futile as the First Nation folks feel it is to reclaim any sustainable home geography.  My ramble on the island has kicked in some crazy mind chatter that flows deep and wide about appropriation, exploitation and amnesia.  What is an organism anyway but a vessel of spirit and genes? One enlivens, and one extends a biological expression onward. Today, I decide that the act of placing one foot in front of the other and simply breathing in the soup of air as a walking meditation in holy communion with the other living things around me.  I choose to be in this moment as if it were Eden, sharing creation now and now and now and now.  Those trespasses and thoughtless incursions, the bungles and unfortunate mistakes should just become compost in the wind, the rain, the sun and with the hard work of a host of decomposers.   Here is my prayer, out of a rich loam of contrition and better intention, let our species grow beyond its petulant adolescence. The virus is doing its work of throwing a monkey wrench into the finely tuned machine's motherboard.   There is wiser and kinder Phoenix among its circuits, I have seen it.

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