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Covid19 Journey Day 27


April 17, 2020

Today’s celebration – Last May I attended the annual school fundraising gala.  Browsing the items on the silent auction tables, I found nothing that that stirred my avarice, so I took another tack and decided to find things that I could have fun with or devise pleasure from, as a way to justify some necessary opening bids.  There was an impressive box of chocolate bars with a couple bottles of red on which I entered the first bid, and I paused at a wooden crate with another pair of wines, nice glasses and a gift certificate for a charcuterie tray.  The vintner of the Pinot Noir and Chardonnay was Kosta Browne. Without a thought of the initial bid being the winning bid, I scratched my offer on line #1 - $150. I did covet a set of hand thrown mugs from our headmaster’s wheel, but found my bid lost in the healthy bid escalations.  By the end of the evening though, I was the winner of the box of wine and chocolate and the two bottles of Kosta Browne.  Once at home, I inspected my booty and looked up information on the wines joining my cupboard.  I had a treat in store!  The Kosta Brown winery, Sebastopol, CA,  is a small business that produces award winning wines.  The Pinot is considered the best wine of the year.  I read the vintners’ notes and tried to educate myself on what would set this one apart so from the regulars that I drank: Gnarly Head, Meiomi, Kendall Jackson.  I just couldn’t suss out how significant could be the difference. The price point for both of my new wine acquisitions were almost 10 times what I would normally spend. To my knowledge, I’ve never experienced wine that cost more than $40/bottle.  I promptly tucked them away for a “special” time.  Tonight, I grabbed that sturdy brown bottle of pinot and brought it with me to enjoy with cohort friends over dinner.  It was my first social outing since returning to Iowa. Seeing how we are interacting as colleagues on campus during the week, we felt that we could break quarantine and enjoy an evening with sensible social distancing on this Friday night.  Staying a step beyond the fray seemed reason to celebrate.  And the wine was extraordinary!  A surprise, I could not know how unexpected the difference would be, and the pairing with my friends Beef Bourguignon, perfect! Here was the apt occasion for that glorious bottle to be uncorked.  A Friday night after a long week of learning how to teach in the virtual world and working to help kids keep perspective and to keep productive even positive in these trying days, so tenuis and improbable. And here is a small sign of the virus’s good work.  How many years might I have quarantined those bottles, measuring the merit of a moment against indulging with such treasure of wine.

Today’s idea – The virus is a portal, the virus is a knife, the virus is a spotlight. Timely metaphors are beginning to bob up in the tempest. I listened to Suzanna Arundhati Roy interviewed by Amy Goodman on Democracy Now, as she described the Covid19 quarantine experience in India. And writing about it in Financial Times, she points out some things I’ve noticed,  “But unlike capital, the virus seeks proliferation, not profit… bringing the engines of capitalism to a juddering halt….long enough perhaps to examine its parts, make an assessment and decide whether we want to help fix it or look for a better engine….the tragedy is the wreckage of a train that has been careening down the track for years.”  She talked  with Amy about walking with the displaced fleeing Delhi after Prime Minister Modi gave the country four hours to prepare for its lockdown in March. “Our towns and megacities began to extrude their working-class citizens like so much unwanted accrual.”  People leaving the cities and walking home to neighboring states and countries were stopped at the border and told to return to camps in the cities which they’d left seeking safety in their homelands. They felt they were entering a state of limbo.  It is bedlam in India now “as the jobless, the homeless and the despairing remained where they were.”  They fear the danger of the virus but more present is “looming unemployment, starvation and the violence of the police.”  Four hundred and sixty million people have been invisible to the prime minister as he makes his plan for the coming health crisis.  But she contends, “historically, pandemics have forced humans to break with the past and imagine the world anew.  This one is no different. It is a portal, a gateway from one world to the next.”  I read another essay  in the wee hours this morning by Rebecca Solnit. In it she refers to the pandemic as a spotlight that illuminates underlying problems that will need to be addressed. She wrote, “In theory, all of us are vulnerable to coronavirus, but in practice how well we fare has to do with what you could call preexisting conditions that are not only medical but economic social, political and racial – and the pandemic…has made those differences glaringly clear.” Ordered to shelter in place begs the question of what that sheltering looks like.  “What does a family of eight do in two rooms with a dirt floor, little food on hand and no running water? Those who are in prison or other forms of detention find that lack of freedom means lack of freedom to take the necessary measures…some who live alone have been reporting devastating loneliness; people who live with others have reported everything from exasperation to fear.”  We have been telling ourselves that we are getting wiser, kinder, fairer but maybe we are not there yet. We are experiencing the tediousness of upending that children feel when parents disappear, that a single mother knows when she gets cancer and loses her job, that an inmate falls into when convicted for a crime he didn’t commit. I have thought of the virus as a knife, dissecting the system and inviting us to cut out what does not serve us.  It resonates with an Inuit metaphor that looked at predatory animals as a blade to strengthened prey populations.  This pandemic is like an exploratory surgeon seeking the cancer. The social malignancies make us more vulnerable and unstable.  I want to transform these metaphors into prayers, sending them out to work for the ones they speak about and to.  Let the new world at Roy’s portal serve those Salt of the Earth people – the essential wheels of our economic engines of the wealthy but still adolescent governments.  Let the spotlight illuminate our path forward so that we can take a new road.  Let the knife expose the paradox of truths within our natural world, that in order to be healthy, a population must protect or sacrifice its most vulnerable.  If sacrificed, let them be recognized as the champions bringing us over a hard road to a fortified future and let that sacrifice be made with eyes wide open.  Amen!

Today’s observation – How can we claim to be adults in more than age and reproductive cycle?  The pandemic has exposed so much adolescent proclivity to problem solving and development.  Teaching environmental science and the conundrums our societies have raised with our policies and business plans make me question if we have more adulting to do in our relationships with the earth and with other beings coexisting here with us.  It is true there are pin pricks of mature judgement and policy shining intermittently among the life choices and plans expressed in our culture and ecology.  We can look across time and find pockets of history, communities now that operate and cogitate with a mature consilience.  And to borrow a phase from Brene Brown, we could look at what the story is that we have been telling ourselves. Then how do these times change or influence it? Can we step back and listen to more voices of this crisis? Are we being heard? Is it more important to be right or to be understood? Are we finding (even seeking) the vital messages that could open us to the collaborations we need now?   Maybe the virus is an agent of change, a catalyst.  As we connect with it, unavoidably we are reshaped and able to reconsider the things we’ve taken for granted, able to interface with the world a little differently.  Perhaps the virus can make our hearts more open, our concern more acute, our gratitude deeper, our patience a little longer, our sense of self, kinder and broader.  We are crossing a field together, perhaps moving through a global and cultural passage.  This I pray - let us emerge a little more adult than the way we have entered.

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